not very many but there are moments...moments where I just sit on my own and cry. I cry because I know that December is coming and I'm going to marry the most loving caring man in the world. I cry because I know that once December comes it means I have only a matter of days before he leaves me for a dangerous world that I know nothing about and that he's going to be gone for our entire first year of marriage. I cry because I'm happy that I'll have him for a little while, but I also cry because I don't know whats going to happen. I don't know if he'll be safe, I don't know if I'll get to ever see him again after he leaves. I try not to worry, I pray constantly. I guess it would help if I had friends down here but I don't. Between wedding plans and needing to be up in Charlotte our Sundays down here are pretty hit and miss. I'm hoping after we get to go to church for any amount of time in a row that I'll make some friends. I just need something to distract me, someone to hang out with, a hobby, something to take up my time. Please pray for me...I'm trying to be strong and show my future in laws that even though they may be taking bets on how long I'm going to stick around I'm here to stay and they just have to get use to it. I have to stay strong for Adam, he's not going to be able to leave me if he thinks I'm going to be weak and not able to handle him being gone. With the Lords strength I'll make it through.
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