We're closing in on the end of November and my family (well half of them) came down to my home in Georgia to celebrate Thanksgiving with me and Adam.  I have exactly 28 days till my wedding day and I am SUPER excited, I think we figured out a way to get all of my flowers for just over 100 bucks which would be awesome but we risk not getting any because we saw today that Wal-Mart sells a dozen roses for 10 dollars a piece and we can get one for each of my girls two for me and a couple more to make the guys things and do some other things.  Adam and Cray just got back from taking a run in the rain and he thought it would be a fun idea to rub his moistness all over me....after we're married probably some fun there but right now it just make me feel yucky with nasty rain sweat water so yeah....I had words lol.....anyways...lets see I have to finish paying the caterer...well mom does and I have to pay Kerri the rest of her fee and then I have to give the DJ the rest of his money....and get the flowers and a few extra things that we'll get the day after Christmas from Wal-Mart and then I'm ready....not to much left....Adam can pay off the rest of that with one paycheck so I'm not worried...I have one more rent check to pay next week and then the rest of the months money goes to the wedding and my hair and nails and stuff....I'm pretty excited about it....man it costs way to much to have a simple part....anyways we're going to watch End of the Spear so I'm gonna go....hope everyone had an awesome Thanksgiving.

not very many but there are moments...moments where I just sit on my own and cry.  I cry because I know that December is coming and I'm going to marry the most loving caring man in the world.  I cry because I know that once December comes it means I have only a matter of days before he leaves me for a dangerous world that I know nothing about and that he's going to be gone for our entire first year of marriage.  I cry because I'm happy that I'll have him for a little while, but I also cry because I don't know whats going to happen.  I don't know if he'll be safe, I don't know if I'll get to ever see him again after he leaves.  I try not to worry, I pray constantly.  I guess it would help if I had friends down here but I don't.  Between wedding plans and needing to be up in Charlotte our Sundays down here are pretty hit and miss.  I'm hoping after we get to go to church for any amount of time in a row that I'll make some friends.  I just need something to distract me, someone to hang out with, a hobby, something to take up my time.  Please pray for me...I'm trying to be strong and show my future in laws that even though they may be taking bets on how long I'm going to stick around I'm here to stay and they just have to get use to it.  I have to stay strong for Adam, he's not going to be able to leave me if he thinks I'm going to be weak and not able to handle him being gone.  With the Lords strength I'll make it through.